…and one I can’t talk about because I’m constantly being watched/spied on by people who have no authority to do so.
I do hope they don’t know about this blog, but currently I am believing anything is possible.
I feel awful this evening. Like I have been hit by a tonne of bricks and I will never ever recover.
I am struggling to find the positives in anything right now.
This condition, and this surgery, has literally destroyed my life, in more ways than I ever thought possible.
All my life I’ve been the girl who never quite fit in.
I really thought that as an adult that would change – that I’d finally find people I could connect with and could trust. People who wouldn’t want to destroy my life just because they don’t like me.
Well I was wrong.
The adult world is even more brutal than the child/teenage world.
Is there a term for lower than rock bottom? Because that’s me right now.
I have no strength.
Absolutely nothing to pick me up out of this dark, deep abyss.
All I want to do is give up and give in.
There is no fight left in me and I am broken.